Pride before a fall...and all that jazz

This might come across as whining, but ya know what? I don't care.
Pride comes before a fall, and again that's what has happened to me in my life. I'm just sick of it. I've lost friends, people I looked to for support, laughter, a bit of fun...I've lost my poochy, my lil boy who meant more than the world to me, I've not got a lot to show from my life and I'm tired of working my fingers to the bone to try and prove something to the world when it gets me exactly no where. I passed my exam, which was the pride...the fall is my career. Just when things seem to be going in the right direction someone or something pulls the rug from under my feet and it's happened again. I'm out of energy, I'm sick of fighting my way back, I want some control and I don't have any. I'm done with fighting back because I've very little to fight back for, what's the point? It all goes anyway.

I'm outta here, I don't even know why I'm bothering to write this.

Woohoo! Exam is over, although I'm not happy and won't be until I get my results next Friday...see how well I did :S

Starting new topics next week as well so it's going to be a busy time, I've another 4 exams which ends in June and then a two month wait to get my result...unless I have to resit the simulations again which will be straight after that main exam in June...not much fun! We'll see how it goes...

Anyways, I'm shattered so I'ma gonna chill for a bit,

take care out there,

Mouse x

AAGGHH!

Slightly stressed doesn't really cover it, I've got my first of five exams tomorrow and I'm scared to death!! It's more difficult and a lot more pressure when the company is paying for your course...not to mention the fact that it's a 100% pass rate..no pressure then...

*Deep breath*

I get the results next Friday so at least that's not too long, dragged out thing althought that will take place on my 5th exam :(

Oh well, I'd better do some more revising, wish me luck, for I am going to need it!!

Watch out for mutant snowmen!!

Mouse xx